Big hugs. There’s so much I would love to share with you. Unfortunately there is only so much one can put in a letter from the future. I definitely don’t want to risk breaking the space-time continuum.
This year has been really hard, and I know it felt like constantly getting kicked when you’re already down. I want you to know you are deeply loved. No matter what happens I’m always right here and it’s ok to cry. I know hearing that it’s ok to cry may catch you off guard, but this is a lesson it took us many more years to learn, and it’s important to give you support in your time of need.
Before you write this off as pity, or some all-is-doom-and-gloom letter, I want to add that you are a badass. How many people can say that they walked in for a relatively routine surgery, get their lungs ripped open, and come back from that. You’ve dealt with the impossible situation of following doctor’s orders, yet you ended up addicted to the medication they put you on. This was happening while your school was threatening you about having to do an extra year if you didn’t start showing up to classes. You came in like a boss, and was like, not only am I going to fight getting off this medication and this withdrawal, but I’m going to go to class and do homework. Who does that? I know at the time, we just did what we thought we had to do, but if you step back and really look at it, you’ve accomplished so much more than many people do in a lifetime.
Just because you’re a badass, doesn’t mean you have to deal with everything alone. You don’t need to hold the world on your shoulders to get through the world, nor to help other people. I am so proud of you.
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